I didn't write this. A really romantic freak living in SOMEBODY wrote this.....

Okay, so the romantic freak inside of me wrote this, and beings only a few know who I am, I don't have to be embarassed to blog it here. My uncontrollable alien.... my romantic freak.... it's all her fault...

I am not as wise as it may appear. I have only taken married people's advice and put it into words..... and I'm still working on getting this all right... some parts of this writing I just don't like. If anywhere you see how it could be better, put it in your comment as it should be written in the poem.... thanks a bunch, my occasional readers!!! =)                                      

                                      Prince Vase and Princess Rose

Prince Vase had asked Miss Princess Rose If she would marry him. But they were not alone. Angels of both kinds stood there, their arguments filled the midnight air. 

 The hideous angel Sorrow's voice was louder than the rest. He snarled of broken dreams, lost love, and a painful inner death. "It isn't worth it!! Is the last that I will speak!!" His voice still echoed over waters black so hauntingly, it seemed. He stepped into the darkness; another appeared.

Few gowns such loveliness have seen; hers sparkled in the darkest night. Her dreamy voice so quickly told of ease, and gold, and castles high. "If you marry him, dear Princess Rose, no griefs will come your way. A life of laziness, and love, will be all yours to enjoy!!!"

The angered Prince then shouted out, "You fool!!! I know your voice! You evil angel Fantasy!! how can you lie like this?!? Don't tell my Rose those horrid tales! There is no way--" he groans -- "I cannot match up with those hopes you just gave."

The Princess, crying now, said, "Sorrow's echoes I still hear!" And with dying hopes they both cried out, "Is True Love ANYWHERE?????"

"Oh, you mean me," a quiet voice. "My real name is Commitment. What you call me is your choice."

"Speak on, speak on!!" the lovers begged. Commitment came closer; here's what he said. "Wherever you go, just go together. Forget your own self as you focus on the other. Work on knowing the other better."

The Prince spoke first. "A Vase fits a Rose, and a Rose for a Vase. I can't promise much but my love is for life!!" His voice the only sound in the now-quiet night.

The Princess stared down Sorrow's throat and ignoring Fantasy cried, "My Prince! Where you go, I will go!! Whatever lifestyle it is you choose, that lifestyle, it is mine!!"

Their courage rising before their foes made Commitment rise and sing, "Today is YOUR day, oh lovers fair!! Bring on the wedding feast!!"

They chose Commitment's rocky road, and though no fantasy they found, no evils parted them. In time they came to understand True Love arrived the moment when they let Commitment have a voice.

The End

I'm still not sure why I made the Prince say that he couldn't promise much; a Prince has everything, right?? So let's just pretend that Mr. Vase was a Prince with a whole bunch of brothers. You know the Andy Griffith show, how Andy always gets the criminals and the credit always goes to Barney?? Well, that's the way it is with Prince Vase and his brothers......... =) lol he works hard, and makes sure no enemies cross the moat, but he lets the others have the credit (and the gold). But he got a rose. okay, that's just silly...........lol.....

Life really is good right now. I no longer have ANY problem with nightmares...I have so many friends...I don't have a job right now, which means I can be home with my family all the time, but I am hunting for a job, and it looks like I may be successful!! I get to see some friends whom I haven't seen in forever here soon...ahhh....life is good....really really good.

I was thinking about how we work through our memories. All of us have some memory that we really don't like. Anything from having watched a person die to being told 'You are worth nothing!!' I've had serious arguments with God about those memories. And now that I've almost worked through the last of my negative memories, I know what He allowed was really for the best. I used to hate people who told me that. Well, maybe not hate hate them, but really feel like they didn't know what I was going through. I still have a little struggle left from my past, but I've concluded that when my past haunts me, or part of my past haunts me, there is something I haven't learned yet that I need to. Does that make sense? And then when I give that part over to God, then I can rest....it's amazing how much I can forget. I can forget the same memories that used to roar through my mind insistent on not leaving. They're just GONE and it's feels so good....yay.......happy sigh......

Life is really really really GOOD. I just wanna LIVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  

God, You know what's wrong with me....I'm tired...I've been talked down too much, and I remember it too well. I'm just weary of this trial. I'm not supposed to be done with any trial until I learn what You want me to, then You take care of the problem. I don't think I'm learning what You want me to learn, so You might as well move on to another area of my life. And please don't let anything ever hurt as bad as I have hurt already........God, if You were here in real life, I would give You a hug, let You hug me forever, and what ever You are wanting to happen in my life maybe ~ wouldn't seem as hard...I'm just enduring this life right now...a little part of me enjoys it, but when I'm so hurting, God, then I really need You...just to help me let it hurt...just to make sure I do learn whatever You want me to learn...

Your Daughter Who Doesn't Feel Anything, not even Love, right now.....barely do I feel love for You......but I know I really do

                                                                        LOVE YOU

"Sweet Pea, I do know what's wrong with you, I have known about it before you were born, and I am not shocked by anything you have told Me. I am strong, and you wouldn't have thought of that except that you are tired. I let that enemy of the cross talk you down so that you would heal stronger, more humbled and compassionate. Tell Me everything he said to you....it will do you good, I can heal you only as you open up to Me. You ARE learning, and I will let you keep struggling until you are gold in the lesson. I am crying with you though, I never enjoy these lessons either...I AM here, I do have you not only in a hug, but completely resting in My arms...see, it's not as hard when you understand that, right? Yes, you are enjoying this life more than you think. Satan is only trying to make you feel depressed, and he's been helping you focus on the negative. Look to ME. Look UP. There. And look at my scars. If I did that for you, I went that far, then, you definitely are not worth nothing, right? You have touched my hem, and I will heal you. That's what those scars are for.

I am feeling your pain, and I - I LOVE you soo, so much more than you will ever understand."

                                                                    JESUS